Virren

I have stolen this from halloumicheese, who found this comment on Reddit.
I see a lot of message here; Not only for me, but all in all.
And I want it to be here. 


"I wish I could say you get used to people dying. I never did. I don't want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don't want it to "not matter". I don't want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can't see.

As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.

In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.
Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out.

Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too. If you're lucky, you'll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks."

Hello and welcome everyone to my FAQ! I finally decided to create it, because of me getting a lot of similar questions.So, my name is Anna, and I am 19 y.o. self-taught hobbyst artist. Basically I am self-taught in majority of things. By the way, it's too saucily to call me "an artist", I'm just the one who likes to draw and makes fun of it, living in the stories I create.
As far as I remember I draw all my life, since I was able to hold a pencil in my tiny hands. Wildlife is my main passion, and my favourite subjects are wolves and hounds, as you may already notice; avians, horses, deers and dragons go a lot closer to previous ones.

1. What programs do you use?
I use Photoshop Cs6 for digital art, some time ago I used Cs5, actually, not a big difference. For videos I use Screenflow, that fits perfectly to me.
That's all actually.
I tried SAI, GIMP, ArtRage, Crita, and Adobe Illustrator, and used to draw using them from a start, but they are not the right ones to me. 

2. What tablet do you use? 
I used Wacom Bamboo Fun Pen and Touch, but it happened it got broke, so actually I purchased Wacom Intuos 5 L.

3. Why canines?
I like their anatomy, the exterior. I feel comfortable about them, so that's probably why. I never asked myself this question, because I draw what I feel and how I see everything around me, and for now, everything is canine-alike... It's hard to explain, and I'll probably skip. That's personal.
Only thing I can add, that in my childhood I used to draw only felines, horses, and dragons(one day my work with two dragons win a second place in my city's fantasy contest, and was supposed to be returned to me, but it got lost. I was sad, because that work was made by pastels, my fav traditional tool, full of details and really good, I still like it.)
At the age of 11-12 everything changed and I started to draw dogs-alike characters. Then wolves, and wolves-alike.
Hmmm.
Now I'm involved in avians, I develop a story of my osprey(fish hawk) character, whom I'll soon introduce here : ]

4. Why don't you draw furries/my little pony/porn/humans/<any variant of yours here> ?
It's impossible to please everyone. Everything is a measure of time, and maybe someday I'll draw any of what's listed above.
My thoughts go this way: 
I would like to tell story(ies) that I like, that give me inspiration, and would like to see people who like it either to join. I think there's no sense to draw what you don't like just because you want to grab watchers. You'll lose yourself in it. My advice is simple and not original: bring something new. Maybe not new, but something yours. Don't be afraid, just make it and have fun! You'll see how people will gather around you; everything is hard from a start, but there will be no rainbow without little rain. 
Remember one main thing: Original is more worth than a copy. 

5. Your main source of inspiration?
Music, my dreams, and nature. No order. Sometimes I get inspired from films or cartoons.

6. Do you take requests?
Broadly speaking - no. If I feel like taking few - I post a journal about it.

7. What traditional media you like to use most?
I'm not as good in traditional, as I am at least in digital. I like to create pencil sketches to catch and doodle an idea,  but basically I enjoy digital more. Well, I do love watercolors, but they're so complicated to be with! When I was younger I really enjoyed pastel. 

8. Can I be your friend?
I saw it in Grypwolf's page, but originally the quote belongs to Griffsnuff. Here it is:
 "No one asks that. Thats what you do when you are 5 years old. Friendship happens over time."
The thing is "watchers" and "close friends" are a lot different to me. I do not want to hurt anyone, but I must say few words about this matter.

Watchers/followers are the people who expect arts from you, activity, regular updates, anything that they're interested in, in this case they're always glad to see you or at least slightly remember who you are. Watchers usually know about you pretty much nothing, they do love what you create, not what you are. 
Friends are people who knew about your the things that they'd better didn't know at all. They're always near, even if you forgot to call/text them back, or talk not in a very pleasant way with them. They are. It doesn't matter, whether you skip updates, or create predictable characters and stories, or you simply can't draw an exact foreshortening you want. They will not gossip before your back about it. I know what I'm talking about, I was (and I still am) lucky to know such a kind of people : )

9. Do you take commissions?
From time to time. I don't create or hold a queue for the future, but you can keep an eye on my journals - it happens to me that I'm able to draw smth for others.

10. What about trades/ACEO's/gifts/collabs?
Basically everything is closed, at least for now, because I'm so much involved in my stories and personal projects. But when my art-status is open, trades are open for the people with my level or close to mine, gifts are at my wish, gift isn't a request, remember please. Collabs go with the same options as trades are.

11. Can I make a fanart for you?
Sure thing, it doesn't need to be asked!

12. How old are you?
That was mentioned above

13. Are your characters for a free use?
NO. Stricktly NO. Mine characters mean MINE AND MINE ONLY, unless there's credited that I co-own any with somebody; but I actually prefer not to co-own a character with anybody, so do not ask this too please : ) Why? There are a lot of difficulties, I think to co-own a character you can with a person you know as good as you know yourself only. Not with a random one who just liked your characer's design.

14. Can I use your art on RP's/forum/book/story?
What you can use is kinda "random art", where characters don't belong to me or to commissioner and so on. Unless you ask an owner about it. Mine characters are not allowed to be used anywhere. You can spread/ save/ etc my arts, but don't claim them as your own, trace, or copy in any shape or form; and same thing goes with characters.
Respect rights, please! 

15. Can I RP your characters?
NO! >_<
Not really. I mean I really don't like or appreciate it, so again strictly no please. My characters are alive and mean a lot for me, and I do not like them to be acted by someone, like they'd never even act in their real lives.
Only I can RP my charactes if I feel like doing it, and it's reasonable: I'm an owner. You're not, so lets prevent conflicts. 

16. What's your hobby except drawing?
I graduated from the music school(piano classes), so I enjoy playing it. Now my instrument is RIP, but I hope to get one in the future. I'm also spending a lot of time with my dog, I like to teach her different tricks and take photos of her and, moreover, what's around me. From this january I'm a kind of volunteer in a local vet, I'm not getting payed for that, so it's like a hobby: I spend time with animals, feed them, wash them, and just have a look after. Furthermore, I enjoy horse riding and vaulting('voltige' from French), that's what I was doing the past summer. And planning to continue in this. 
Aaand travelling. The most expensive, but still the most interesting hobby. I got rid of my aerophobia, so this summer I'm free like a bird. : D I love, I do love my city much, but I'm feeling that something is calling me from somewhere. So it's wanderlust. This city does not define my life. I love it, yes. But home, native city, and such things - are places we can always return to. 
My choice is to discover something new. 
FAQ will be edited and updated with new questions or options when it will be necessary!


And I think this journal requires me to answer some questions you're curious about. 
For a shy ones I have an anonymous ask.fm account: ask.fm/wolvenmond ; It's basically russian, because Idk why I'm asked so much questions there, I'm not so interesting, I think, so please, don't be shy to ask

OKAY, OKAY. Just because everyone posts this, I decided... Why not? Sorry for the mistakes: I'm writing from my phone.
Well... My story begins at 2009-2010 year, when I first heard about DA. I was little stupid child, who tried to paint masterpieces in Gimp by touchpad and mouse. 
Here are some of them  
That my FIRST ART in digital
He-he, I see your eyes bleeding, so let's stop a while!
My DA story won't be too long, I'll warn you. Just because I'm a bad teller. My first account were FreeFrozenWolf & FreeFrozenWolfy,I forgot email & password from the 1st, and created the 2nd They're both banned, because I traced some images %) Haven't I mentioned, that I was a stupid child?
Time passed, I've changed myself and changed account. My new nick-name was Frozen-Sirius (that's not because of Sirius Black, that's because of the star called Sirius).
I met good friends here. With some of them we used to talk, but now just sometimes fav each other's works. With some of them we're friends for the present tie and our relations mean a lot to me. 
Again some of my old works again, from 2010:
Sometimes I look back and have a kind of nostalgia: something that've passed will be not with me again. People. Relations. Feelings. Emotions. I had a hiatus in... 2012, as far as I remember. That was a bad, bad year, and I changed account on DA, but I told about that only few people, because I didn't want any stranger to contact me or watch my works. To be honest: I was hiding from one person ( I WAS FOOL ), I didn't want that person to see me/my works/just anything related to me. A month passed and I was back to my original account (this). And I'm still here, ehehe x)
Btw, with the person I hid from I have good relations now, we're good friends, and I appreciate it now.( in the past I do not, BECAUE I WAS A STUPID CHILD).
Some works from 2012:

And from 2013:
I'm less sociable now: that's consequence of everything that had happened in 2013 and at the beginning of 2014. I'm trying to struggle with it, and sometimes it brings strength to me, and after that I have an inspiration to draw. 
You know...It's hard to let go smth, that is chained to you.


Usually I do not mention my friends/close people/acquaintances, because I think it's not polite to others and I'm risking to forget smb. But today I'll make an exeption. Soo... Here they are! 
Remember please: NO ORDER. Just my memory, that issues names spontaneously
• - I know that person from the very beginning, when I started to explore DeviantART world. I still remember how we first met Now we're close friends, and dude, I'm so happy to have you near me. 
• - That person I know from some RP's where we were playin' together. Actually before I've met WoRo on DA and on RP, I saw some of her works, but I had no idea that they belong to her! She's always been one of my inspirators and one of my acquaintances, I remember the time when I asked you for a piece of advice, and for the help(not long time ago)  
• - I know him from 2013's spring-summer(do not remember currently). He's a raptor. After that actually I can say nothing, cuz' IT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING. But no! Thank you for all the time you wasted on me, ahaha! Blue niggas, raptors, and anarchy are our companions forever. LET IT GOOO, LET GOOO, EATING WHAT'S LEFT IN YOUR BRAAAIN  X'DD *cries in hysterics* do not forget Kris Hamvort, or he'll come for you from STS
• - He's my brother. To be precise: a sworn brother. But that doesn't matter at all. I enjoy our time spending. Still remember when I came to visit you, than missed in such a little town(shameee XD), and our phone dialogue:
- Wait. Where are you?
- *I named the street*
- STOP. Stand there, I'll come and find you.
- I don't think so.
- What? Why?
- I'm already going for another street whose name I can't even name.
- OH **************, GOD DAMN!111 
___
That was a lot of fun And when after some time another one:

- I see you. Cross the street, I'm standing there.
- What? I do not see you. Where're you?
- JUST. CROSS. THE FUCKING. STREET. (XDD)
- Okaaay. *Me, crossing the street* - I still can't see you.
- GOD. You were almost hit by a car! Look around, damn!
- Pft, what a trifle. Heeeey, I do not see you!
- GOD DAMN. MAYBE YOU'LL TURN BACK?
_
That was sooo fun! ahahah)) I always remember that with a smile on my face.

• - I know this dude since I joined DA and some VK(russian social network) groups. We do not socialize actively now, but remember that I'm always ready to help you, if you need it. Also I remember our phone calls And your cuuuuuuute doggy Fram! Give him a kiss from me! I hope we'll meet as we plan in winter, lol Maybe in the end of August, or any time you'll be free <3

• - ... ... ... . I'm lost what to say. I knew that person for 5 years (maybe 4,5. My memory is a terrible thing). Our acquaintance started on the RolePlay game. At first our characters made an acquaintance, actually, and after that she added me in 'friends' in social network. We started to communicate, and that was quite simple and delighted: we have so much in common, so we always have things to discuss. Idk how to describe my relation to her. It's not real love, not sister's or friend's love. I think she became like a second half of a soul to me. Good time spent together is priceless.
 It's so hard for me to say anything, because I'm not so good as you, my dear watchers, may think. Sometimes I make stupid things, and sometimes I make people suffer. Not because I want it, just because I am not well at communication. 
Umm. I'm so sorry. I'm really sorry, for everything that I've said to you on 03.08. I do not really think so, I was just angry. It was said in a temper. I do not want to grovel and/or beg for something. You can decide everything by yourself. I... Do not want to leave behind bad memories about me, if it's end.
But every time I realized I was wrong, I'm sayin' "sorry" to you.

Just to know.

I think that's all. Thanks for everybody who read it up to the end. You're my heroes!